When Scott and I married and talked about having babies we also talked about if I would work or not. We decided that if it was finically feasible for us, I'd stay home with the babies while they were little and once they were in school we would decide if I'd go back to work or not.
We are lucky enough that I am able to stay home with Jase and be his mommy and his teacher. Before actually become a SAHM I didn't really understand what it involved. I honestly thought it would be easy, man was I wrong. There's so much to do when there's a little running around. Tasks that seemed so simple before kids now take so long. For example doing the dishes. With my child it's hard to do dishes when he's awake. He has yet to understand not to pick the plates up and drop them or not to touch the knives. Right now it's easiest to wait until he's napping to do some tasks. Or that vacuuming will take way longer with a toddler following you around, tripping on the cord and standing right in front of you basically wanting to get run over from the vacuum.
Among all the chores that us moms need to do theres the whole reason we're at home with the kids, to raise them. Wow, I didn't realize how much pressure I would put on myself for raising my child. I constantly wonder if I'm doing the right thing. Am I reading enough books to him, letting him play outside enough, is he talking enough, communicating right and on and on. I think the pressure comes mostly from the fact that is Jase ever falls behind the only one I have to blame is myself and I defiantly don't want to fail my child.
For the most part, I try to not be TOO hard on myself and realize that I am very lucky I get to be home with Jase. I try to remember that when Jase is learning new things I get to be home to witness them, no matter how soon or how long those new learned things take.
*This post is not to compare working moms to stay at home moms, both of these jobs are hard and come with compromise*
<3 Lindsey
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